languages

sábado, 5 de agosto de 2017

Train Ride from Whitley Bay to London

North sea,

the way i enjoyed the ocean
dark, brutal and your blood vessels constricting to the point of discomfort
I was 17. I was reading Kundera at the time.
Teresa and Tomas destroyed my life. I didn't know one could feel that amount of pain.  
the loneliness was comforting
the waves tossed me around, they say that the cold water wakes you
I believed it to the point of bathing every morning in the discomfort. 

Oh  you. You are my favorite sea. I want to live  beside you but I'm not ready yet. These things take time. My lust for you was instant but everyone around me says I should contain it. "Keep being inspired by it! But don't let the sea own you" they say. Spend your time in other bodies of water there are so many out there" Yes. there are. But I'd much rather be there sitting with you. Separate but knowing that you are there when I'm in need of the lighthouse. 


miércoles, 31 de diciembre de 2014

LAZARUS




You were in my dream yesterday, I followed you thru a maze, kind of like the one you described you wanted to recreate except this one wasn't filled with people, or smoke, or music, this one was nothing like the labryinth. I wanted to savor every single moment because i knew that when I woke up there would be no maze, no you, no laughter. I've dodged many bullets before, and still found myself wrapped in the maze, the maze we create for ourselves in this world, with speech and big hands. Not all saw thru themselves, many were caught in the web, you were unaware of it sometimes, because you genuinely just wanted someone to walk with. ... you were always waiting for someone to drive you home because you didn't find yourself well most of the time.

Some say, new year, new you, but new year new you is all the time, because your cells are always reforming and your bones are always remodeling.

domingo, 19 de octubre de 2014

where you once stood

 I wanna see you shine, deep in your blues, deep in your reds
there were many places that were impossible
but we know in which way we are to go,
i forgot what you look like  but i'm all ears
i sink with your spells, and your words, and all of your big beautiful fears
they crawled into my mouth
and I spoke highly of your name from the west to the east


martes, 26 de agosto de 2014

SONG FOR THE HEALING





1. LA FORCE
2. SONG FOR THE HEALING 


LA FORCE 

Lights on the rope
telling you we're made alone
I'll tie red ribbons to the ghosts

its you who's on the run
red daggers angel dust
its you who's on the run
you're, the, saint, i'm dreaming of 
you're the saint, i'm dreaming of

in due time, we will live in the states
jumpin from train to train
but you cant keep yourself sane

its you who's on the run
red daggers angel dust
its you who's on the run
you're, the, saint, i'm dreaming of 
you're the saint, i'm dreaming of

SONG FOR THE HEALING 


A song, a song for the healing
I was still healing, 
you were so far
A song, a song for the working
it's never working
its been much too hard 

and I , I was just trying
to get you to wake again
to be wide awake
and I, I'm asleep by your doorway
maybe he'll wake again
he'll be wide awake

oh trouble, you were such trouble
when you were playing
your red guitar
and what,
what I would do
I'd get on my knees again
to hear you sing again

and I , I was just trying
to get you to wake again
to be wide awake
and I, I'm asleep by your doorway
maybe he'll wake again
he'll be wide awake





sábado, 26 de abril de 2014

martes, 22 de abril de 2014

a letter, russian red, and carmelita


Dearest LOU,
I write this to you from a few blocks from your house. I have been listening to various versions of CARMELITA for the past few hours, only to realize that every single person that sings that song drives me crazy--a good crazy. I don't think it can be done poorly. I've been literally trying to find out who does the best version and it is merely impossible to do so. This morning you released your video and it made me miss you a whole lot. This weekend I was in the desert, I got to hang out with a horse, and by hang out I mean I forced a horse to let me be near him.
I love you, come back, bells




VIDEO DIRECTED BY ALEX BERGMAN
HAIR AND MAKE UP LAUREN KAYES
WARDROBE LAURA CRISTINA ORTIZ